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Sensitive issues and rough language
in this chapter!
I took advantage that Derek wouldn’t be back until late at night to go see Cataleya. It had been nearly a day that I had not seen her. Although I knew Charlotte always took care of her in my absence, still, I missed my little angel. I couldn’t wait to have her in my arms again.
But, to my despair, Cataleya was not alone as I expected. I caught Tiberius and Anoki approaching my daughter. Tiberius was already taking her from the crib.
I stood there, at the door, starring at them, numb with shock. I was terrified. Cataleya was in great danger, Tiberius could kill her in the blink of an eye, and I wouldn’t even have the time to react. I knew that stay calm was imperative at that moment.
“Put my daughter immediately back in the crib!”, I told him, using an authoritarian and irrefutable voice. He stepped back, startled, and turned to the cradle, obeying my command. But Anoki let out a sarcastic laugh, rolling his eyes, before confronting me.
“And what will you do … Newborn? Kill us? Why don’t you try? Do not be shy, come on … let’s see what you can do!”, “He said, triggering, challenging me.
In a supernatural impulse of a furious vampire, and protective mother, I jumped at Anoki.
Within a fraction of second, my fangs were already stuck at his neck, sucking his blood with the voracity of a wild animal. When he tried to push me, I sucked even harder, holding him firmly until he died.
Until then, Tiberius seemed not to be able to move. He just stared at us in disbelief, in shock.
Anoki was already sliding between my arms, dead, when I felt the arms of Tiberius hugging me from behind, pulling me to him, trying to turn me away from Anoki. His fangs were already touching my neck.
As if giving in to his attack, I left Anoki fall immediately.
But to his surprise, in the same movement, I pushed his arms firmly against his back. Then I clung to his neck, biting him, sucking his blood as fast as I could, drinking him dry. He kept trying to bite me, but I was stronger.
I could barely believe how easily I destroyed them both. Contrary to what I had imagined, I was the strongest of the three. “How come? I was created after them! …” I thought, confused.
“It seems Derek didn’t tell me the whole true. What else is he still hiding?”
But I had no time for that now, I had to check on Cataleya and then ask Charlotte for help. I still had to tell Derek… and I knew he’d be furious.
But before I could make it to the crib, I felt an immense pain going through my body, followed by a supernatural rage.
I screamed – no, I roared like a lion – uncontrollably. My desire was to destroy everything that I saw on my way. Everything and everyone.
I felt, then, my eyes burning, they burned so much I wished I could pluck them from my face. I did not understand what was happening to me at that moment. It was as if demonic forces had invaded, possessed my body.
Scared, I run to the mirror, to see what was happening. I saw my eyes glowing. They were so bright! They looked like two torches of white lights. And I also felt much stronger than before … But, in a way, wilder. I felt an almost uncontrollable desire to break, to destroy everything.
I realized I had absorbed something of Tiberius and Anoki. What exactly, I was not sure, maybe some of their power. But I began to wonder why Derek didn’t tell me this either… But, again, I had others priorities…
After I making sure both were really dead, I finally turned to Cataleya, to see if she was okay.
There she was, sleeping like an angel in her crib. I approached to hold her in my arms like you used to. However, the moment she was in my arms, a strange feeling took over me.
It was like a magnet was pulling me towards Cataleya. An almost irresistible desire welled up inside me. I did not want to just hug her or play with her. I did not care anymore about her sweet smile. All I saw at that moment was her blood running smoothly through her veins. All I wanted was to drink that blood.
I stopped, startled, and stared at her with wide eyes. While I loved her so much, I terribly desired that blood. And I was not even hungry. The blood I had drunk the day before still held me.
“Oh, my little angel… forgive me… I.. I can’t… I just can’t!”
In a supernatural impulse, I left that room without looking behind. Neither Charlotte nor Derek was there to protect Cataleya from me. I needed to go far away from that house.
I went hunting to release my frustration. I looked for the most dangerous killer I could find. And drank of him and, when I had enough, I butchered him, without any compassion. At that night, I was the beast.
It was almost dawn when I returned. I found Charlotte in the main lounge, playing the piano.
Powerful as she was, I was sure she knew what I had done. But contrary to what I expected, she did not say anything about what had happened. At least not immediately.
In tears, I explained what had happened to me, that I couldn’t come close to Cataleya anymore. I begged her to help us.
“Please, Charlotte! There is something you can do to allow me to hold my baby again.”, I asked in despair.
“My poor Elvira, I’m so sorry … Believe me, I would help if I knew how. Even a protection charm on Cataleya would not help for long. Especially now, she would be in constant danger.”, she said with a sad voice, while she hugged my, trying to give me some comfort.
“Why especially now, what do you mean with that, Charlotte?”, I asked, puzzled.
“Elvira, I’m not here to judge what you did. Those two abused a lot, they surely deserved it. However, the moment you killed them, you not only absorbed the force of two vampires, more than fifty years old each, but you also inherited their weaknesses and instability. That wouldn’t be a big deal for a vampire like Derek, for example, who knows how to control his emotions. But you were created only yesterday. I’m actually surprised you’re still alive, that you didn’t kill yourself. ”
But, I can’t believe I absorbed everything, as you say. I feel stronger, Yes, and all these voices… But beyond that, I don’t feel much of a difference so. … Charlotte, I just need some time to learn how to control myself. So I’m going to be able to resist the Cataleya, you’ll see! ” Charlotte just glared at me silently. But I could sense her disapproval, hidden in the gentle, soft expression of her face. But I continued anyway,
“I just need you to arrange a safe place for Cataleya, and I cannot know where she’ll be staying. I’m going to ask Derek to help me. I’ll continue here until I stabilize, until I learn how to control myself. ”
“If Derek helps you, still, it will take years until you can see Cataleya again. The path will be longer and harder than you can imagine. It may be that Cataleya is already an adult until then. That being optimistic. ”
“Why if Derek helps?”
“You know how much he loved those Newborns, Elvira. I never understood that love, but I know he cared a lot about them. He got already really mad when I killed Margot, and had not yet recovered. Now, losing them both, Tiberius and Anoki … ” after saying that, she stopped, as if I had to reflect for a moment,”
How did he react? “, I asked, worried.
“I’m the one who found the bodies… the ashes. He arrived soon after. He felt their death. To my surprise, Derek just asked me to collect the ashes for him and went down to his lab. And didn’t leave there until now. ”
“You think I should go down? Go talk to him? ”
“Can’t you feel him?”, she asked, looking astonished by my question.
“No. To be honest, there are so many voices in my mind that I can barely concentrate. They are driving me crazy. I could scream, cry. I can hear all the people, all over the city and the surrounding villages. Maybe even further. I wish I could shut out the all the voices but I haven’t figured out how.”
“This, Elvira, is just the beginning. Go down to Derek. You need to confront him as soon as possible. You need his help. Even maybe disappointed, sad, or angry, he only has you now. But don’t expect too much from him. He’s hurt, he feels betrayed. He’s going to need a long time to forgive you. ”
“Don’t worry, I’ll take care of her. I’m going to take you far away from here and I will protect her with a charm. I’m not going to let you get close as long as I consider you a threat to her. ”
Charlotte stared at Elvira as she leaves the salon. A sad look, because she knew what had happened. And she also knew that this was only the beginning…
“Poor thing … so much suffering!”
My legs trembled with fear when I went down to Derek’s lab. Although I knew he wouldn’t kill me, yet I had betrayed him. Even though I didn’t have a choice, I took him his protected ones away. And I had no idea how he would react.
I found him in the Lab, working frantically. He saw me arriving but he chose to ignore me. I just stood there, watching him, waiting for his reaction, but he didn’t respond. It was as if I wasn’t there. Finally, I decided to break the silence.
“I couldn’t do anything. It was they or my daughter. I didn’t even know I had the power to kill them. You never told me … ”
Seeming to have just come out of a trance, he suddenly stopped, listening. Then he approached slowly and said, coldly, “I have nothing more to say to you. I’ve already done everything I could… but seems that you decided to go your way!”
“Derek, please I need your help, now more than ever! I don’t know how … ”
“You have no idea what you’ve done, Elvira! Can’t you hear? I cannot help you. There is no ‘auto discipline potion’ available yet. Self control is something that is acquired after decades of effort, of training. That’s why a vampire is born weak. Their self discipline and power usually grow together, hand in hand. It should never happen differently.” he said bitterly, interrupting me.
“It’s no use to quote me rules now, Derek! I need to know what to do!”, I said impatiently.
“What to do? Nothing! You will need to be locked in a sarcophagus for half a century.”
“What? Never! Now you’re being cruel, vindictive.” I said offended.
“You don’t understand, Elvira. You have no choice. Either you sleep for a while, or you’ll be eliminated. Don’t you think Elvenor will let you wander the streets killing everyone and destroying everything what you see, indiscriminately. ”
“But who said I’m going to do this? I’m not, I’m going to follow the rules. ”
“No, you won’t. You think I don’t know what happened tonight? How you butchered your victim? And this is only the beginning! ”
“But he was a killer, he deserved it.”
“Who are you to judge who deserves what? Or have you forgotten of your own words? ”
“I was still mad that I had to kill Tiberius and Anoki. I felt frustrated. ”
“And this gives you the right to kill someone brutally? Can’t you hear yourself, Elvira? This is not you. This is the blood of Anoki and Tiberius acting on your body, changing you. You’re acting like them. At this point, you are they. And tomorrow will be worse. And even worse in the days and years to come.”, He stopped and remained silent for a moment, looking into my eyes, giving me time to think about his words.
I looked at him ashamed and then I looked down. I knew he was right and I new I would do it again.
“See this time as a training. Even inside the sarcophagus, you’ll still hear the voices. You’ll also feel all the impulses to kill and you’ll everything you can to escape. You will rebel. You’ll scream, even hit the sarcophagus, but, after a while, you’ll calm down and fall asleep again. For a long, long time. But this will be a different kind of sleep. You’ll be aware of everything around you… and the voices will still be there with you. I recommend you try to select the voices you hear. Look for peaceful voices and watch them. Try to live their lives for a while. You will see that you will be able to see the world through their eyes, feel their joys, their wishes. This will surely accelerate your way towards the self control.”
“And how about blood? How will I survive without feeding myself?”
“Oh, don’t worry about that. The sarcophagus will sustain you. And don’t ask me how. It is so.”
“How do I know that I will be ready to leave? And how am I going to be able to leave when I have reached my goal? ”
“Don’t worry, I’ll know. And I’ll be there when you need me. ”
“I can just see Cataleya once more? Please, I beg you, I just wanted to feel her in my arms one last time … ”
“Look at yourself and tell me, honestly, what would you really do if you could hold her in your arms … just inches away from your mouth?”
I didn’t answer. Derek was right, deep down I knew I was using the excuse of being Cataleya’s mother to bring her to me and feed upon her. That’s what I really wanted.
At that moment I realized that it was as if there were two entities inside my body. One was that Euvira that I had always known, polite, patient, kind. But the other was a wild, cruel hunter, who wanted not only to kill, but to kill slowly, causing as much pain as possible. I felt pleasure in killing, in seeing my victim suffering. And I would do everything in my power to take away their life slowly, prolonging their suffering the most, because each moment of suffering brought me an unparalleled pleasure.
While I knew that the time in the sarcophagus would help me, there was also this other side that wanted to get away at any cost. And that feeling grew with each minute, uncontrollably. If I didn’t get in the sarcophagous next few moments, Derek would have to literally hunt me and lock me up.
Here, this sarcophagus was created by Elvenor. It has a healing power, will definitely speed up the process. I’ll leave it here, in my Lab. So you will be able to feel my presence and will know that you are not alone.
I stopped in front of the sarcophagus, reluctantly. I was scared to death to enter and tried to plead one last time. I wanted to avoid what, for me, felt more like a punishment than a healing process. “Please, Derek. Do not let me go through this. There must be another way …”
“Elvira! You enter now, or I’ll push it inside!” He said resolutely.
Tears rolled down my face as I entered the sarcophagus. A moment later, I could hear the door lock from the outside. A total darkness surrounded me and I fell asleep almost immediately.
To be continued…